Bountiful Harvest

I was once a sentimental person, very much sentimental, i even collect scrap papers of people whom I met. Always thinking and dwelling on the past issues. thinking what I could've done. I was obsessed of what people would say to me as well, in simple terms I can be described in two words, "Sentimental People Pleaser".

As everyone knows that this kind of life is not good in the sense it wrecks confidence of self. I thought by doing such action I would be stronger and appreciated by other. But just like anything negative, it ends up getting on your nerves and gives you a sudden jolt that nobody cares if you please them. Yes, they get something from you but never you gaining something from the experience. During the testing times I had undergone, my weaknesses and realizations came forth and i easily saw what I was doing with myself. It is not healthy. But in my stumbles I saw my own savior. Actually he led me to my realization to be positive in life and make the most out of it.That was the time I saw God working in others lives and in mine so in that instance I became a Christian. A God fearing person.

Though I'm not saying i became holy, I started to live righteously. In my walk with God, I had many stuggles as well but the bondages that i've been experiencing is long gone. My life felt full of peace, love and forgiveness. I think that's the most bountiful harvest I had. Having My God.

Now I still am a person who "please" but I have a higher one who I serve. He's my own superhero. My God.